In the past couple of days three of my closest friends (including the one I married) have told me that I need to get a life. Ok, so that is not completely accurate. What they really said was that I need to find something that I can do for fun. Something that gets me excited. They mean this to encourage me. I, on the other hand, have just gotten discouraged. In the past I have tried reading, cross stitch, video games, Logic puzzles, knitting, photography, the list goes on. I enjoy them for a time and then stop feeling challenged and get bored and don't pick them back up. I used to love theater but I can't do that anymore ‘cause I'm a full time mommy. Apparently, that doesn't count 'cause "God made you a mommy and so it shouldn't supersede your love for life." Don't get me wrong, I LOVE being a mommy, but apparently that doesn't count either cause it's my job, not what I do for fun. I'm also back in school...but again not what I do for fun. It would be great to have something like Kim's drawing or Mama T's quilting but I just haven't found my nitch. For someone with such an exciting life, my life sure seems boring :-) Hey lookey here, I found something new to stress about...maybe that is my hobby, stressing.
Ok, so I don't really think that stressing is a hobby. In actuality I don't even believe that I overly stress. It is just a great descriptive word to say that I'm figuring things out. I do that a lot you know, try to figure things out. It is simply because I want to do what is best for myself, my girls, and this entire family. I like writing about it though. Actually, what I think I really learned through this whole process is that I like to write. Some things are personal (even for me) so you may not see everything I write, but maybe someday, if I keep writing, I will have enough for a book and I could actually be an encouragement to other mom's who are "figuring things out." It's a lofty idea and may or may not be realistic, but it's fun to dream big and who knows how God plans to use me? Could be His plans for me are far bigger than any goal or dream I could set for myself. "'For I know the plans I have for you,' declares the LORD, 'plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.'" (Jeremiah 29:11 NIV)