Phew

Those that know me, know I sometimes have a tendency to stress, well about anything. I go from topic to topic and eat away at all the possibilities and decisions I could or should make. Early in this blog, I stressed about what to do with Genesis' education. If you have followed my blogs you can see that stress has been alleviated as a decision has been made. So I moved my stress elsewhere. Lately, the stressor has been my education. I wrote in my last blog that I was going back to school. So I stressed. Am I doing the right thing? Is it what is best for the girls? Will I be able to handle it? Stress, stress, stress... Guess what!? I made a decision :-) Today, Srikant said "I think you should just take one class KC. Just take an online class. That way it doesn't take time away from the girls and you can get back into the swing of school on your own schedule." As soon as he said it, a huge weight was lifted off my shoulders. Such a simple decision, and yet until he said it, I couldn't come to it on my own. I'm happy and looking for something new to stress about. Any suggestions?

Purchased and Ready To Go

Ticket to Dubai and reservations for the IBC women's Conference purchased and ready to go. Registration for English 303, Critical Approaches to Literature and Psyc. 321, Social Psychology purchased and ready to go. Home schooling curriculum from Sonlight for Genesis, purchased and ready to go.

For more info on my upcoming trip to Dubai you can click on http://www.ibc-churches.org/women/dubai.html. Billy Grahm and Ravi Zacharias' daughters are both speakers. I am going with two other women from the church and Selah and Genesis are staying home with Papa. I'm excited and already missing the girls all at the same time. We are expecting this to be a once in a lifetime experience.

I begin my classes at the end of the month. The Lit class is a requirement for my minor in literature. I chose this minor simply because I used to have this amazing Lit teacher who I took every class she taught while I was living in Italy. Now I have several classes under way and will only need a few more to complete the Minor. The Psyc. class will be the first class I take towards gaining a BS in Psychology. Wish me luck ‘cause it's been ten years since I've taken Psyc. 100.

Finally, the home schooling curriculum. We are really excited about it. Our plan for now (though we are still checking into the local schools and it's viability as an option) is that in the fall Genesis will attend school locally in the mornings and then after lunch and a nap, home school in the afternoons. We are hoping that this will allow her to learn the language here as well as continue to challenge her academically. She is such a bright kid and loves to learn. She thinks "working" (on some store bought Preschool & Kindergarten workbooks) is a lot of fun and it's a real fight to get her to quit. We also just received home school curriculum designed to teach her the language here. It is designed for Kindergarten to 4th graders and I'm hoping we will both learn from it.

Well that's everything going on in our life. A whole lot coming up but in reality not too much happening right now.

Who are you, who who...

Why is it that we are different people to different people? Why is the personality we portray as a wife, mother, friend, peer, and stranger so diverse? That of course is not to mention the person I am when I am all alone. Why can't I take the person I am that I like the best and always be that persons? On paper it seems so simple but in reality it never works out that way. Sometimes I am nice and sometimes I'm not. Sometimes I'm funny and witty and other times I'm just a dork. Sometimes I'm patient and understanding, and sometimes I just want to get it done. Sometimes I'm intelligent and intuitive; other times I can't get a simple thought together. Sometimes I'm strong and brave, other times I'm afraid to get out of bed in the morning. Sometimes I'm cocky and arrogant thinking I'm superior, sometimes I feel as though I'm the lowest person in the world. If I'm confident and compassionate with you, than why can't I be confident and compassionate with her? If I'm wise and witty with him, why can't I be wise and witty with them? It’s a strange phenomenon, and who knows maybe it's just me. Are you who you are no matter who you are?

Back on Track

I am so excited to see my life coming back into focus. Between two overseas moves, my slipped disks, and baby Selah the last two years have flown by with only Selah to show for it. I felt like I had lost sight of my direction and what I wanted to do. Tonight I registered for online classes. Monday I will sign up for one more class to take here on the base. Tonight I am excited about where my life is going. I have my sweet girls and pray the future will continue to bring more additions to our family and I'm excited about not giving up my dream of being college educated. I may be the first one in my immediate family line to actually complete a BS. I can't wait to get going.

Blogging is addictive

So now I have my MySpace account up and a Blogger account. I keep looking at everyone else's to find fun new ways to spruce them up. I sign on at what is 3:30 in the morning in Chicago hoping to see someone not able to sleep, sorry guys. I check every email address and blog sight to see if I might have a new message. My heart sinks a bit when I don't see anything and skips a beat when I see someone has something to say to me. I'm not just pathetic, I promise, I'm in the transition of a move. The first year you are trying to settle and you miss everyone you ignored for the past however many years you lived in your last place. Eventually you have lived someplace long enough to have new friends on your speed dial list and it's hard to find time to get online and soon you let long gaps go without talking to your loved ones. Sorry if I have negleceted y'all. I need you now though...and who knows? Maybe I will always be this excited about looking for new messages and always look to find new ways to spruce it up and make it newer and better :-)

For Stephanie

I created this blog at the advice of my bf Steph as a way to help keep in touch while I'm living the life of an Air Force Wife. We are in our third home in three years, but as I've been able to live in some of the greatest places in the world and seen so many other great places, I should not complain. Now, I call Belgium home. We are living in this cute little house and now that our "stuff" is here it's taking on the title home. Srikant (my hubby) just spent the past week working off his patooty getting everything set up. No one could tell looking at our place that we just moved here. I think the girls (Genesis 4 and Selah 5 mo.) are adjusting wonderfully. Genesis misses her old preschool, but I think her gymnastics program is better here than what we had in NM. Thank you Coach Robin for preparing her to be ready for it. For the most part Selah is happy as long as she has her mommy. I too am trying to adjust. I think I'm having more problems adjusting to my little girl growing up than I am the new surroundings. Getting aclimated to a new place can be very lonely sometimes, so I love getting messeges from friends... remind me I'm not such a loser :-)